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Dear Chix,

Kung kailan ka seseryoso, saka ka gagaguhin...

I wasn't a player but I am not a serious type when it comes to commitment. I haven't had a relationship for quite sometimes, not because I don't want to but because I get tired of chasing around. Aside from that, my former relationship did not end well and caused me a lot of hurt. Instead, I concentrated on my job and the same time, my studies.

You see, I entered college again to help me seek a permanent position in the agency.  Our school's not that big. In fact, it just a one-story building. So more or less, all of the students are familiar with each other. In this school is where I met the girl that I intend to get serious.

My classes start after work. I have to rush to school as not to be late. One afternoon, I was literally running when I bumped her along the corridor. I looked at her but don't have time to say sorry. The teacher was about to close the door and there's no way I could get in if he did.

After class, I saw her but obviously, she wasn't in good mood, nakasimangot eh. Mas sumimangot pa when she met my gaze. It was then that I noticed how cute she is.

The days dragged on. We keep on seeing in the campus but I don't have the chance of speaking with her. By the way, I got her name, cp number and FB account from her girlfriends but I'm too shy to text her or add her as friends in FB. Then, I got the chance of my lifetime. She was standing near the canteen and I casually stood beside her. Greeted her, do a little chat, perform my cutest smile. And the cat is in the bag!

We become friends and finally decided to tell her I wanted to be his boyfriend. We entered the courting process: text, calls, waited for her after class, hatid sa bahay, we even go out. I was enjoying every moment of it. I really wanted her, I am  in love with her. Parang kami na nga eh, kulang na lang ng confirmation from her. It was like that for almost 2 months.

Then, without warning, everything stopped. She wouldn't take my calls, reply my texts, even talk to me. Laging may alibi. Laging may palusot. I tried to talk to her but she wouldn't talk to me, not even look at me.

Before Christmas break, I had the chance to confront her. I beg for her explanation, beg for her not to drop me. But she showed no feelings for me, she didn't say a word. Nagmukha akong tanga sa harap nya.

Until now, it wasn't clear, ano bang nagawa ko? O hindi ko nagawa? Para namang I'm destined to be hurt again and again.

I have three more months to endure this pain. What should I do? She's all I ever wanted.

Pinaasa Nya Lang Ako  

*Galing dito Dear Chix